In the past 8 years or so, the only purchases that I have made with a credit card online have been for phone apps and music.
The reason for this is that I do not shop online. Shone does it for me. Shone takes care of everything. I have no urges. NO lingering online shopping. No ability to pull the trigger, on anything. It feels so FREE. Really FREEEEEEE
This started when I lost everything in my life. House, truck, bank account, business, etc. Oh trust me, I know exactly what rock bottom looks and feels like. I had been royally fucked over by friends (on more than one account).
Instead of sitting around in my grief, I remember shone encouraging us to go to my first SF decompression. It was the perfect step! I’ll never forget the transition.
I chose to walk through the fire, and climb out, vs. holding in anger, and acting out towards anybody.
I’m thankful for this choice.
Because in the past 8 years I have used my time wisely. I have put all my efforts into reestablishing and regaining sustainability. I have focused on what’s important, and I have let go the issues that were weighing me down. Anger, resentment, frustration, is just not something I care to spend a lot of time on. I refuse to be a victim.
There are more important things to experience in life!
Music has been such a vital process in this particular time in my journey. I’m so thankful to be surrounded by so many amazing and talented friends, and art crushes, and people doing amazing things!
I have learned.
To have more compassion for all kinds of people. Even the ones from my past who have been more neglectful in the way they have abused their greed for time and energy with what they give or care to offer back. I know what it feels like to be disposable. I don’t look at it as being abandoned.
I have realized that it’s our own responsibility to manage our boundaries and offerings. It is up to us to know when we are crossing others boundaries as well. This creates a lot more harmony and balance in our life.
And that is one key life aspect I desire to maintain for the rest of my life. It has fueled this radically up and down journey of mind, and I have found it to be so effective. I’m so in love with today!
Keep on Wiggling!