I have a lot of thoughts and ideas about swinging and polyamory. I will for the record let you know that for the most part, I have only really thought about these lifestyles and have barely dipped my toes in.
I remember previously thinking that to my naivity, it had to be one or the other. duh! See this is why I think it was really important for me to take my time, and to understand the differences. Understand the meaning and place they hold in my life.
It’s a big step.
It shouldn’t be taken lightly.
There will always be emotions and processes to work through as the “event” is initiated.
Shone and I talk to great extent of how we feel, what we want, and how we would like to experience these lifestyles.
The truth is currently, we have been narrow minded to these activities because we have been putting our heart and souls into developing our websites. Both are creations from the heart that we continue to nurture and support day in and day out. I feel like I am poly lol. The other two “people” just happen to be adult communities! ha
I do know that with his support, and nurturing, much like in this particular story I read just a short while ago, that when we are activated, I will feel light and know that all is well. Vice versa. It excites me tremendously!
There are lots of obstacles to overcome before any activities can take place, and I’m thankful that shone and I are in agreement with what needs to be in place first. ie- STD/HIV testing, etc. My heart and love is full of acceptance and support and love for those that do. I have quite a few friends with a health stigma that will be part of them for the rest of their life. Doesn’t change a bit how much I love them and adore them. If it should happen to shone and I, because we are willing to experiment, then it’s going to happen. We will take the precautions, but this is one area of risk in my life that I wish to pursue and explore.
Life is about Risk yes?
I think that some risk can be managed, but let’s face it, every time we drive a car we are putting ourselves at risk. it’s a part of life.
I enjoy the idea of a love nest. A love nest filled with consenting and connected couples and some singles. Living, enjoying, exploring, within set boundaries so that all are on the same “known” page. Living together, creating art, living life, and enjoying. oh yes!
I also love the idea of a swinging gathering. A place where all consenting adults have gone through the testing, and we know who is V safe and not. (Vysectomy) no babies please! Lots of condoms! A room full of adventures and possibilities. what attracts you to each other. smell? a smile? those eyes? I would like to feel completely uninhibited with my choices. To enjoy my primal side of sexual gluttony.
times up!
mmmm my mind is going to be in a great state of thinking today!
1 2 3 go!
I have learned that it turns me on to have others watch. I’ve barely scratched the surface of my exhibitionism, (considering the fantasies in my mind)
It’s exhilarating when I touch myself and it feels good, I am aroused, and knowing that others are witness to this, is well, wow!
What is it about others watching that is such a turn on? I love my sexuality, my exhibitionism is not necessarily an invitation.
does this make sense to anybody else but me?
I love to flirt, tease, taunt, etc. I love the digital world that we all live in.
I love thinking, savoring, waiting. over time, over time, over time.
sometimes I feel like a giant godzilla that just wants to eat and consume all of the sexuality I can possibly take in. and I imagine this is what it feels like when and where I experience some of my naughty and slutty fantasies. How else could one woman like me take on multiple bodies, pleasures, touches, arousals, creativity, feelings. yum
I’m looking forward to this. with great appreciation and anticipation. and I can say with certainty that it’s all about the anticipation.
so there we are, tuesday morning ramblings.
what’s on your mind today?
xoxo
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